I think the main problem was that it was such a struggle. I could not resolve a major plot point and kept going over and over until it was this big mess in my head, and that frustration ended up being the main thing that came to mind when I thought of the story. I ended up writing nearly half of the final version the night before. I was really happy with lots of it, but there were bits that didn't live up to the (ill-defined) vision I'd had in my head, and of course I went and focused on the few negatives instead of the positive...
It also serves as a lesson not to visit the anonmeme (they weren't terribly mean about it, but substantially less positive than last year). Finally, I think most authors are somewhat insecure and judge a story at least in part by its reception. Black Flag got substantially fewer comments than Green Means Go and, in my neurotic state, I of course translated that into "people don't like it". I do think that the rise of PDF makes a difference, though, because it takes extra effort/clicks/remembering to come back and comment, and I did offer a PDF via AO3 this year.
So...ha, sorry, that was probably more than you wanted to know! but tl;dr: it was my own inner turmoil manifesting itself. :)
no subject
I think the main problem was that it was such a struggle. I could not resolve a major plot point and kept going over and over until it was this big mess in my head, and that frustration ended up being the main thing that came to mind when I thought of the story. I ended up writing nearly half of the final version the night before. I was really happy with lots of it, but there were bits that didn't live up to the (ill-defined) vision I'd had in my head, and of course I went and focused on the few negatives instead of the positive...
It also serves as a lesson not to visit the anonmeme (they weren't terribly mean about it, but substantially less positive than last year). Finally, I think most authors are somewhat insecure and judge a story at least in part by its reception. Black Flag got substantially fewer comments than Green Means Go and, in my neurotic state, I of course translated that into "people don't like it". I do think that the rise of PDF makes a difference, though, because it takes extra effort/clicks/remembering to come back and comment, and I did offer a PDF via AO3 this year.
So...ha, sorry, that was probably more than you wanted to know! but tl;dr: it was my own inner turmoil manifesting itself. :)