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six years later, here we are again
Jan. 7th, 2012 12:47 amI've had a few, fortunately relatively short, periods away from LJ in the past. They were all associated with restricted computer access - laptop died, moving/travelling/otherwise lacking Internet-I-could-come-here-with - and even though I missed LJ, there was always a brief but odd reluctance to come back. I knew I'd never catch up with things, whether fic or conversations or episode squee; it was easier to ignore it, for a little while longer. A day or two, at most, and then I'd accept that I was out of touch, check in with friends, read the latest, and move on.
This time, I dropped off the radar on July 25, and...just never came back.
I was tired. I was unhappy with my J2 big bang this year: I didn't have enough time or energy to devote to it, and I avoided it for too long after getting badly stuck, until I wrote probably half of it in a desperate last-minute struggle not to let my artist down, and it showed. To me, and to others, and I let a few negative comments get to me. I was struggling with other stuff I was supposed to write - still am /o\ - and there were some big things out in the real world I had to organize and deal with. LJ was mostly making me feel guilty, so I avoided it. As a result, the break caused by a brief internet-free vacation kept getting longer and longer, and it got harder and harder to come back.
A lot of the above is still true. I'm still struggling with writing, and with having time to write, and with reading anything at all. But I miss you guys. And today's my sixth anniversary on LJ, and the day I usually do an annual round-up, so here I am again. I hope can find a better balance in 2012.
What I Did Last Year, by Gwen
Supernatural
sink or swim - Sam/Dean, PG-13, ~3200 words. Written for![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
apreludetoanend.
Involves a water elemental and angst. This took a long time to come together but I like the style of it: less dialogue, more description, and maybe darker/deeper than usual.
Dolor Ibi Est - Gen Sam & Dean, PG-13, ~8500 words. Written forde_nugis in the ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
ohsam hurt/comfort challenge.
I had fun with this one, both the plot and Dean's wild stories.
put it in your pocket - Sam & Dean, PG, ~1000 words. Written for the prompt "better with you" atsilverbullets.
Because there's never enough stargazing.
day springs eternal - Sam/Dean, R, 1376 words. Written for the prompt "hope springs eternal" atspnspringfling.
Mystery Spot twist. Angst, but with a touch of hope. Dean keeps dying, and Sam keeps doing something stupid. I imagine everyone has to write Mystery Spot fic eventually.
get outta the kitchen - Sam/Dean, R, 2650 words. Written fordancetomato. Sex pollen fic from Bobby's POV, with bonus!Castiel.
This is far and away the most popular thing I have ever written. I'm glad it made so many people laugh! A companion piece from Dean's POV has been in the works for far too long. *apologies to DT*
CW RPF
Give A Dog A Bone - J2 AU, PG-13, ~10K words. Written forj2_everafter, loosely inspired by the Black Cauldron.
Crack, mild schmoop, cliches, improbable science, Eilonwy!Jensen and Assistant Dogwalker Jared. Yeah.
Black Flag Over Texas - J2 AU, NC-17, ~32K words. Written forspn_j2_bigbang.
Prequel to last year's story Green Means Go. If you haven't read either and are considering them, I'd suggest starting with last year's. I think it's more enjoyable that way. Both involve suspense, hidden identities, dystopian politics and Jensen being awesome. Also explosions, if you like that sort of thing.
Other:
In Plain Sight - Spike/Xander, ~850 words. Written foreyezrthewindows.
I wrote this in a fit of last-minute inspiration. It was nice to revisit these guys for a little while.
And finally, a snippet of Angel/JDM, forlaisserais.
I can't write either of these guys. Really. But somehow, they wanted tobrood at talk to fuck each other.
It turns out I wrote about as much this past year as I did the year before - all in the first half of the year! No wonder I burned out, I guess.
Incidentally, I did a year-in-review round-up last year, which nobody commented on. This was only mildly surprising, and so it was not until some time later that I realized one contributing factor was that it was locked and misdated. *facepalm* Not that you don't already have a million things to read - I certainly do - but in case you're interested in what I wrote in 2010 and my thoughts on it, it's available.
See you around, I hope! ♥
This time, I dropped off the radar on July 25, and...just never came back.
I was tired. I was unhappy with my J2 big bang this year: I didn't have enough time or energy to devote to it, and I avoided it for too long after getting badly stuck, until I wrote probably half of it in a desperate last-minute struggle not to let my artist down, and it showed. To me, and to others, and I let a few negative comments get to me. I was struggling with other stuff I was supposed to write - still am /o\ - and there were some big things out in the real world I had to organize and deal with. LJ was mostly making me feel guilty, so I avoided it. As a result, the break caused by a brief internet-free vacation kept getting longer and longer, and it got harder and harder to come back.
A lot of the above is still true. I'm still struggling with writing, and with having time to write, and with reading anything at all. But I miss you guys. And today's my sixth anniversary on LJ, and the day I usually do an annual round-up, so here I am again. I hope can find a better balance in 2012.
What I Did Last Year, by Gwen
Supernatural
sink or swim - Sam/Dean, PG-13, ~3200 words. Written for
apreludetoanend.Involves a water elemental and angst. This took a long time to come together but I like the style of it: less dialogue, more description, and maybe darker/deeper than usual.
Dolor Ibi Est - Gen Sam & Dean, PG-13, ~8500 words. Written for
de_nugis in the ohsam hurt/comfort challenge. I had fun with this one, both the plot and Dean's wild stories.
put it in your pocket - Sam & Dean, PG, ~1000 words. Written for the prompt "better with you" at
silverbullets. Because there's never enough stargazing.
day springs eternal - Sam/Dean, R, 1376 words. Written for the prompt "hope springs eternal" at
spnspringfling. Mystery Spot twist. Angst, but with a touch of hope. Dean keeps dying, and Sam keeps doing something stupid. I imagine everyone has to write Mystery Spot fic eventually.
get outta the kitchen - Sam/Dean, R, 2650 words. Written for
dancetomato. Sex pollen fic from Bobby's POV, with bonus!Castiel.This is far and away the most popular thing I have ever written. I'm glad it made so many people laugh! A companion piece from Dean's POV has been in the works for far too long. *apologies to DT*
CW RPF
Give A Dog A Bone - J2 AU, PG-13, ~10K words. Written for
j2_everafter, loosely inspired by the Black Cauldron. Crack, mild schmoop, cliches, improbable science, Eilonwy!Jensen and Assistant Dogwalker Jared. Yeah.
Black Flag Over Texas - J2 AU, NC-17, ~32K words. Written for
spn_j2_bigbang.Prequel to last year's story Green Means Go. If you haven't read either and are considering them, I'd suggest starting with last year's. I think it's more enjoyable that way. Both involve suspense, hidden identities, dystopian politics and Jensen being awesome. Also explosions, if you like that sort of thing.
Other:
In Plain Sight - Spike/Xander, ~850 words. Written for
eyezrthewindows.I wrote this in a fit of last-minute inspiration. It was nice to revisit these guys for a little while.
And finally, a snippet of Angel/JDM, for
laisserais. I can't write either of these guys. Really. But somehow, they wanted to
It turns out I wrote about as much this past year as I did the year before - all in the first half of the year! No wonder I burned out, I guess.
Incidentally, I did a year-in-review round-up last year, which nobody commented on. This was only mildly surprising, and so it was not until some time later that I realized one contributing factor was that it was locked and misdated. *facepalm* Not that you don't already have a million things to read - I certainly do - but in case you're interested in what I wrote in 2010 and my thoughts on it, it's available.
See you around, I hope! ♥
